I want to be better than Mama

At everything. Cooking, and gardening are just a few of the things I want to be better at.

I'm really afraid of the future, and I feel odd saying that because I don't know if you understand.
I mean, I can really see myself staying with you for the rest of my life because I can't live without you.
I just want to let you know, when I say the future freaks me out, what I really mean is that I'm scared of a future without you.